What Is Truth?

10:15 AM

I’m sitting here staring at the screen in awe and disbelief. The Trump admin just dropped declassified UFO files on the new Department of War PURSUE portal, and it’s a complete mind-fuck. Official government documents, sitting out in the open, basically admitting aliens are real. For decades, people were called crazy or shunned for mentioning this. Now it’s just a daily headline, like it's a normal piece of everyday news instead of the mind-boggling realization of something that is going to rewrite human history. We're all supposed to just act normal and like everything is cool, after getting hit in the face with this nuclear explosion of facts in our reality.

Honestly, I've been a massive conspiracy theorist going down these rabbit holes for many years, but this shit just became very real; awesome but very hectic. Honestly, trying to process something this massive without a drink in my hand is terrifying. I've used all kinds of excuses for my drinking, such as past trauma, stress, or whatever. All those things that happened to me obviously affected me, but what I've come to realize is the real why. When I was younger, life seemed endless, but as I've grown older and realized death awaits everyone I love, and myself, it became too much to carry. Life itself, death, and all this cosmic madness is the actual reason why I just wanted to stay drunk, so I never had to deal with it. That is the most realistic reason why most people, including myself, drink a shitload. I had to numb myself because I couldn't cope with all this information sober. Looking at the sheer scale of what is being revealed, it’s no wonder I drank every single day just to cope with being alive. The universe is too heavy, and my brain is hyper-aware of how strange existence is. Alcohol was the only way to numb that constant static so I could function. Now the shield is gone, and watching history unravel with totally sober eyes is pretty scary.

2:30 PM

Another thought just hit me. Fox News is literally discussing the declassified Davis testimony, casually naming four alien species like they're reading the weather forecast: Greys, Nordics, Reptilians, and Insectoids. Mainstream TV is just dropping this into our lives like it's no big deal.

This is going to completely rock the foundation of the world's religions. For many Christians, this disclosure will cause an absolute crisis because it fractures their worldview and makes them wonder if the Bible is a lie.

But looking at the Bible without the rigid, small-minded filters of modern religion, the signs have always been there. The text is packed with things that sound like interdimensional beings and advanced technology. Ezekiel describes wheels within wheels flying through the sky, burning like hot metal. The text talks about the Elohim, the Nephilim giants, and ancient texts mention the Anunnaki who came from the sky. What if primitive humans were just trying to describe spacecraft? Was the "God" I was taught about actually an advanced intelligence that came down and genetically altered our primitive ancestors to speed up human evolution?

6:45 PM

If humanity was engineered and our evolution was fast-tracked, the entire script of human history changes.

But even if that turns out to be the cosmic truth, it doesn't mean the ultimate Creator isn't real. It just means the universe is infinitely more complex and terrifying than the small, safe stories I was handed to keep me compliant. If God created the heavens and the earth, then He created the dimensions, the laws of physics, and whatever beings are flying these crafts. My understanding of His scope was just too small.

I keep coming back to Romans 8:28: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him. In all things. Not just the things on this planet, and not just what fits neatly into a church sermon.

9:00 PM

A lot of people are going to completely freak out and lose their shit as reality shatters. But my job right now, on Day 10, isn't to solve the mysteries of God and the universe or spiral out into the unknown in a panic. My only job is to keep my feet firmly on the ground, hold onto my personal connection to the Creator, and get through all of this shit without my brain exploding into a gazillion pieces. The universe is massive, but I just have to manage this one room today; and yes death is still on the cards for me and everyone I know and love. Weird!

At the end of the day, the only way I am going to deal with everything is by sticking to my faith and belief in God, Jesus, and the Bible. It gives my life meaning, whereas before, I was just lost. The absurdity and meaninglessness of life (the thought that we live and love, just to die and face nothingness) is terrifying to most humans. I see now why I had to numb it; it would have consumed me completely. My faith gives me a meaning and hope to cling to, even if the Greys, the Reptilians, and the rest of them are legit real.

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor rulers, neither things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:38-39